Back in the land of the living . . . literally
Hello Friends,
I’m sorry I just abandoned ship a few months ago - I’ve been thinking about you guys a lot, but so much has happened since then.
Most of you, who’ve read my blog, know that my dad was in a really really bad motorcycle accident right before Thanksgiving, and was fighting for his life in intensive care up until my last post. I know he gave it his all, but he lost the fight. My dad passed away on May 2. I was holding his hand when he flatlined - and I can honestly tell you that watching him slip away is the worst thing I’ve ever had to do. - and I hope to God I never have to do anything like it again.
My dad had COPD, which was a major contibutor to his death. After standing by for 6 months watching my family go through this, and watching dad suffer I know I owe it to myself, my friends and my family to be as healthy as I can be. I don’t want to die of something that a healthy person could have survived. During his hopital stay, I started wondering “what I’m waiting for? Why am I wasting my life doing nothing? “. I look back now and think I had 6 months that he didn’t have. 6 months where he would have appreciated just one day outside, one day to go to work, one day to hell, stand up or get out of bed . . .and what did I accomplish? what did I do whith that time? Nothing really - and that has to stop. I know it’s cheesy but I totally embrace that line from the Shawshank redemption where Andy says “Get busy living or get busy dying.”
I choose life.
Wow - I’m SO sorry to hear about your Dad. I’m sure he would be proud and happy to hear your resolve to be healthier and live life to the fullest. He loves you and he’ll be watching as you reach your goals!
K
I’m sorry about your dad.
My deepest condolences on the death of your father .. As I write this there are tears in my eyes .. because I know. I know how it feels to watch someone you love die .. and it tears your heart out .. please take care of yourself .. you’ll need everything and everyone you have to get through this .. but you will .. one day .. one breath at a time.